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    【】didnotknounderoreeffeiaxi,ituedtoybrother;hehadalreadygonein.isohoe.ihadnotbehavedlikehtheosurvivethehurrie.”

    iybraininrpusoftheariaasaheinstitutentradeinbeijing.ifoundthatheansufferingfrohyse,lookingagoodtenyearsolderthanhisage.butthetorretuedtohiseyesethatatlasthehadbeeatedasaprofessorofenoforoverthirtyyears,hetookadeepbreathandsighed.afteraaverysiberofyearstoplete.letshopethateesforanotherge,ibearoundtoseeit.”

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    akindoftorture

    aftertheepisodeinvolvingbrother,theinterrogatorntinuedyrelativesandfriends.thisseriesofinterrogationslastednearlysevennths,untiltheendof1969.theni.ionthpassed,andthenanother.hereed,ispoketotheguardandrequestedtoseetheinterrogator.

    “doyoutosaytotheinterrogator”

    “iycase.”

    “heblestheterial.thegovehedecisionaboutyourcase.”

    “entgoingtodothativebeenheresuealready.iotedicalattention,”isaid.

    “youareallright.edieandspecialfood.”

    “iotallright.nditiosoreherrhagesreykidney.ihaveonlyonekidney,youknoyoperation,thedouchsulfa.”

    theguarddidnotspeakforant.thenshesaid,“thedifficultyaboutyourcaseisreallyyouroostayherebecauseyounfess.”

    “ihaventdohingisupposedtoheinterrogatorhasexaaentderaisevoice.buttheguardrelyclosedthealkedaway.

    durifeonthsandthenysessionsofinterrogation,ihadfordadistinined,ienttokethedeadeseobeunistparty.ydisappointnthavebeensogreat.asitoreneweddespair.

    theseryoflifeintheagination.lookingbaonthsofheavysnos,intenseld,andnstantphysicalpain,irvelthatiuldhavelivedthroughitall.

    onedayethingthatdidnotlather.theguardtoldthatsoaponth.issiontobuyalittlerebeorefrequently,theguardbeoyedandshouted,“anyplacesthepeopleareonlyalloily.”

    thetoiletpaperdeofproeatoftenappearedyriedtoaffecttheguardsaslostagooddealofilitantguardsirisisthatinvariablyfolloicalupheaval.

    theneeagerrationsandruralpartyseuogoventpuresofhardship,thereptionoffoodandotherdities.hoofthe“ilitaryskillaaryleaders,forrdefeerpengdehuaiandforredostiortantfaovedfroffipaighattheirvieilitaryleadership.

    prolongedhardshipandprivationyntalpoyiigationproduadeepfeelingofdespondenotbeingabletokeepbecauseofinsuffitsoapandtoiletpape

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