第61节

    【】hievenlookedat

    hi

    hereeredtheanticipationofseeingherandthepleasurewhenhe

    did.

    ithadbeenthathroughthebirthofthekids.eveheyd

    startedtoes

    ouchuldstartthetingling.

    ”hingssobadattheend”heasked,studyingherface.itwas

    healingbytheday.herlorproviothinkthat

    ious.

    hee

    pedthegun.gaveuptoosoo

    happenhoutenoughofafight.uffgoing.”he

    nandbare.”didntwe”he

    seareforablinkoratch.

    ”ikeepthinkingaboutthatbaby.feelingthatloss.thinkingybe

    thatadeusyellandsdgetitallout.six

    years.awave

    ofe,”hee.”

    katheriuedintotheroohetookatiredbreath,sighed,

    straightened.”ho””notbad.andhere”jack

    shrugged.

    hefolloothetraytablethathpapers.

    ”areyougettinge”sheaskedhoutspite.

    ”nh.ispreadstuffoutaend,butitshardtorate.

    oingand

    gotacallaboutane.ifihadntbeenrightthere,i

    ypartnerhanks,butno

    thanks.”

    ”e.graherearefour

    ae,but

    itssllerthanstofourretjobs.davidthinksitsastep

    backforus.”

    ”doyouthink””ithink,”hesaid,flexinghisspinesideto

    side,”thatitdbeafunjobtodo.

    itsinhillsbh.local.thezoningsalldohetknows

    etouseivedohepastasa

    springboard.i.e.,heethingneaginative.”

    katherinenoddedherapproval.jackedtothinkrachelapproved,

    too.

    hesatbadsled.”so,hoinutehe

    saileregistered,andshe

    softened.”sentfloerdayafteoon,”shesaid.

    ”thatsiressive.”shegaveaoneshoulderedshrug.”byro

    flouthedarkabout

    youknoasbyronhen.”

    ”youdontthinkbauerisusedtodicalquirks””quirksthats

    riinitself.ifhe

    dealsedical...quirksalldaylong,

    tofaentisthathes

    beesoihehenotice.”

    ”hednotice.”

    ”aretheythatbad”jatheoutside,

    nothingelynothing.

    ”heyarent,”katherineheyjust...takea

    littlegettio.therearescars.”

    ”feakeittofortyhoutthose.”

    ”itstheideaofthehing.”

    ”thatybereinyourndthananyoneelses.”

    ”possibly.”shepaused.

    ”his””pushing””thegooddoctorand

    .an”jak.”theresaing

    questiathered,youandrachelaretwopeasina

    pod,verychalike,yes

    strong,indepeen”katherinehat.”idsay

    so.

    ””okay.earlyon,isaidthatraeverreallyneeded.you

    saidiehoe,thereghtbea

    ssageforyou.”diatelyrespond,hesaid,”i

    assuyoutalkedaboutit.”

    ”notinasnyenlikeusdohe

    he,likehepoochoose.”

    butshegreetistalks

    aboutthingsshesses.

    ””like””helphthegirls.raisingkidsishard.thebigger

    theyget,thebiggertheissues.rachelsseshavingyouthereto

    talkthingsthroughh.”

    ”shealwayshadanswers.”

    ”ybehegidstle.shehadto.youaround,and

    littlekidsneediediateresponse.bigkids,bigproblerequire

    rethought.

    thatsthedisisses.”youaround.well,hewas,

    butnotenough.hehadssedsoiortanttisfirls.and

    forraore.hecertainly

    shouldhaveknothatbaby.heshouldhavecutthattripshort

    andeho.ifheedbythelossofthatchildnow,he

    uldiginee.

    sheshouldhavetoldhiheshouldhavebeenthere.

    butifhehadbeenthereforherallalong,sheghthavetoldhi

    ae,hesighed.”elsedidshe

    ss

    ””idontknoingearrassed.shepushedher

    fihroughherhairfroh,thenshookherhead.”iknow

    iss.isssooobeeooshare

    eoosharesilence.sharing.iguessthatsit.

    idveosaythatrachelssesthat.”

    ”soundstoshefoundsoofithfaithbligh.sharingthe

    silenceoverffee.”

    ”notthesa.theressothingaboutlyingieatnightor

    very,veryearlyintheing,talking,silent,ory

    hadjakthere,lyinges,

    ingfeherbetheyhad

    ended.”itwasa

    stouse.katherinesarh.

    youketiforyou,rachelhadsaidondshehad

    tried.herecalledatiatripinthe

    evening.shehiredababysitteranddereservationsatpostrio

    upattheairportanddrovehibr>

    there.heproceededtotellherthathehadeatenattheplacesix

    tisinthanduldodoitagain.

    hehadssedthepoint,butsubstance.herealized

    thatnohnoprideatall.

    ”isstakingvacationshrachel,”heoffered.

    heissesbeingpaeredon

    awhile.”

    ”strong,indepeenneedpaering””an,too.”

    ”anynsufficeforthat.”sheshookherhead.”oain

    osan...intangiblexsothing.an

    enandfallforonlyone.aanh

    fiftynandfallforonlyone.knoheansw

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